Eternal Refuge

Well, first it was dad's computer dying ... then my friend jaded_jamie ... now my one has switched itself off a few times ... I need to make sure everything is backed up - just in case.  Mind you my Kindle also cleared the memory and the re-filled itself ... so maybe Jamie's was nothing to do with me, and the others are reacting to my "sparkling" personality!!

Last Friday I went to Physio, and was annoyed with her explanation of the injury ... it isn't often (now) that my past training comes up ... but that was surely it!  She said the injury was because I had high arches - and was nothing to do with the patient falling "onto" me ... in other words, that's what goes on the notes if I sue (which I am not going to anyway!)   Still I now have a crutch to help with walking, and will admit that makes life easier. (I worked for the first time yesterday - just bed making) ... and the bruising is, at long last, beginning to seep out.

Saturday saw me back at Torquay hospital - this time with mum. Her breathing got really bad and I took her in. They say she has started to build up the fluid on her lungs again. I played it down to her, but it is worrying. We didn'tget back till 1am .... she was very upset to muck up the evening - but I just teased and said I had never had a chance to take her out on a Sat eve, so it was good!!!

I am working again, making beds, later - and will admit I have dug out the "nasty" pain killers to get through.  Then 2 days off before I go back to physio (boooooo, hisssssss)

Well I had better go and rest my leg if I want to stand on it later.

Hope you are all well.

PS -

Any James fans .... over on marsters_daily they are doing a countdown to his birthday and showing a lot of great, previously shown, pics .... but still fun!  He is in recording studios, doing another book narration this week ... Carnival of Souls

Some of you noted in my meme thingy that I was sad not to see James this year - yet he will be over at a Con. Sadly, even for James, I know I would never cope. Just the thought of it, as I type screws up my breathing. If he were to do a concert that I could get to, yes I'll be there ... otherwise, sad to say, no James. Thought I should explain that a bit more.

More hospitals - not me this time ... I went with Mum to her Physio appointment at Torbay Hospital (she has torn shoulder muscles)

As I said, I had a physio appointment this morning - and have had to go to Derriford Hospital, Plymouth as I've been seeing a specialist.  It's about an hour and a half's drive from me - but is also one of my nearest main hospital.

... Well, almost!

I made a couple of new year resolutions ... and broke one today!

I said that I would dress smartly all the time ... you know change my jewellery etc rather than a jeans, t-shirt and the same necklace/earings every day.  I tend to have got lazy - not good for me emotionally, I know, as I tend to have major problems with self-image.

Well that one s OK - I've even remembered to wear lip gloss from time to time.

However I did say I would not do snack meals, but cook more properly - sorry to say, it was a snatch-lunch!  But as I didn't get in the house till 1.15 and I was hungry, I've forgiven myself!

I want to get back to me Getting-To-Know-You meme, as I'm 2/3 of the way through - so next one will probably get done tomorrow.

And, yes, the 366 meme will get done - thanks to all who voted - now you get to see weird pictures about my everyday life.

I went to the Physio today and she has basically said that she can't help me much more - I am doing really well - I can actually breathe and sit now - and even get my breathing set with talking (listening to James works) ... but I still can't walk and breathe ... and still wake up with bad breating patterns - but she has yet again reminded me not to be so hard on myself.

Right, I had better get on - I have a couple of thank you letters still to write.

Speaking of which, I've come back here to cards for kazzy_cee and pfeifferpack .... Huge thanks to both.  I do hope your cards all got to those I posted them to ... especially pfeifferpack , as I never checked your address, and used last years!  Sorry!

Hope you are all keeping well - and enjoying 2011 ... so far!

I started off with the Good News to pass on to you all ... and am still stunned at a nomination.

Then the day went downhill!

As the day progressed I realised my cough was back - the one the physiotherapist has been working hard to clear .... then I noticed how sore my eye was - so an appointment at the doctors was grabbed - and I now have anti-biotics.  And, although I don't believe in the "rule of 3s" I found it true yesterday when a good friend had worrying news about their much loved doggy.

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Still today is another day - my eye is sore, but the sight was well enough that I could do the (almost) 2 hour drive for my physio appointment this morning ... She was happier abbout my progress than I was - this has been part of my problem, when I discovered that my breathing pattern was wrong (in that I had reversed the function of my diaphragm) I was annoyed and stunned that I couldn't even do something as simple as breathing!

She has given me a new exercise ... in 2 parts.

Well, I must get on and do some icons for the many comps I'm doing ... and I want to get a bit more of the fic written so I can "annoy" my Beta with that.

Hope that you are all having a good day.

So - here I am, I only have 2 patients today in Plympton, and got here early so I could write this ... before lunch ... an all day breakfast!   (Speaking of Plympton, I told Mike that I wanted to leave when I was here last week, so that is another stage. )

Last week I eventually saw the physio at Derriford Hospital, Plymouth - and had good and bad news!

The good news is that at long last I have answers to both recent problems, as well as to my long term Asthma/not-asthma problems

I do not use my diaphragm ... and if I do I reverse its use, by locking it and using it to reinforce my upper ribs ... WOW!!!!!!

Yes, I rely on shallow snatch breathing, with an occasional deap breath to catch up - thus when under stress I actually hold by breath as much as possible. So, scary ... but as I have focussed and thought about it, she is correct! I have breathing exercises to do .... and it is weird to have to learn how to breath - surely I had been doing that all my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So - I have answers ... and exercises to do, but it is long term ... so I shall have to wait and see.  Although scary, at least I have proof that there is a problem with my breathing (which is aggrevated by my clarinet playing) ... so now I have to learn how to breath ....

Angel won't be able to teach me (as he told Xander he couldn't do CPR on Buffy) ... but Spike smokes, so he will have to give me lessons ... Poor me, I'll have to suffer!!!!!!