Hallelujah - I Don't Have Cancer

[debris4spike]

What a week .... talk about a roller-coaster.

Having started back at work this week after my holiday to Italy (yes pictures are partly up, and some more to come later) I knew the week would feel weird, especially as I had my annual update training day on Wednesday.  Working for the NHS in a large hospital there are certain things we need to re-learn every year, eg fire safety, hand hygiene, and basic life support ... so that was my Wednesady organised.

However, before I got there, late Tuesday afternoon I had a phone call from my doctor saying my blood test from the previous Friday (to check my thyroxine, etc) was showing an ovarian marker ... I needed scans.  So, Thursday morning I phoned, and was seen an hour later ... but was told I was all clear. 

The weird thing is, for that 36 hours I didn't think who I could talk to (other than God), but my main concern overall was not how much I might miss of the future, but of how Jiffy would cope.  However all is OK, totally clear.

Today I had a stress management day at work, as well.  And one thing that they were talking about was learning to be thankful.  I have done these sorts of posts in the past, but thought I would try to do it again for a few weeks ... and hopefully that will also make me post.

The stress course was good in that it showed me how I had managed to develope depression even though I had (and have) no regrets with looking after Mum & Dad.  One thing I did get reminded was that all the bullying I had a teenager has left scars ... and medically scars do fade, but never disappear.  So I realise that I must accept that the hurt of years ago will always shape my life.

Sorry for scribbling, but as I realised today (and this week) I have let a lot continue to drift, and no longer have Mum & Dad to ground me, so scribbling here is a way of letter go of some of the tension of the week.

Comments

[diebirchen.livejournal.com]

Thank God!

[debris4spike]

Amen

[kazzy-cee.livejournal.com]

I think it's a really good idea for all of us to reflect back on how we are doing so I'm glad you feel you can do that here. Very pleased to hear that the scare turned out to be nothing to worry about.

[debris4spike]

Thanks - it's something I used to do a lot. However the last few years have changed things so much for me, that I have sadly let things slide. So it was nice to scribble away again this afternoon

Thank you

[(Anonymous)]

Thanks - it's something I used to do a lot. However the last few years have changed things so much for me, that I have sadly let things slide. So it was nice to scribble away again this afternoon

Thank you

[spikereader.livejournal.com]

I'm so glad that you were able to get the scan done so quickly after the blood test result, and that everything is clear and OK.

[debris4spike]

I know working for the NHS it would be on a two week appt from the time of the blood results, but to get the whole thing done in 36 hours was marvellous ... and the results were even better.

Thank you

[petzipellepingo.livejournal.com]

Very good news indeed.

[debris4spike]

It is, thank you

[hobbituk.livejournal.com]

Good news!  I hate waiting for the outcome of tests so I am really glad you got your results so quickly.

[debris4spike]

Belated thanks for your good wishes - I just pray that your results were equally favourable

[1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com]

I'm so so glad that you got the all-clear!! (((so many hugs)))

[debris4spike]

Belated thanks for your best wishes

*hugs*

[ayinhara.livejournal.com]

Whew! I glad to read about the better prognosis.

[debris4spike]

Belated thanks for your best wishes

*hugs*

[double_dutchess]

What a relief!

[debris4spike]

Belated thanks for your best wishes

*hugs*

[sueworld2003.livejournal.com]

Thats wonderful news. :D

[debris4spike]

Belated thanks for your best wishes

*hugs*

[ozma914.livejournal.com]

Good news!

[debris4spike]

Belated thanks for your best wishes

*hugs*

[ozma914.livejournal.com]

Belated hugs back!