2013 ... 31 Day Blog ... Day 20

[debris4spike]

Day 1 - A Picture Of Myself.
Day 2 - 20 Facts About Myself.
Day 3 - Favourite Quote.
Day 4 - What Are You Afraid Of.
Day 5 - 10 Favourite Songs.
Day 6 - Your Five Senses Right Now.
Day 7 - Your Pet Hates.
Day 8 - What's In Your Handbag.
Day 9 - What's Your Worst Habits.
Day 10 - What's Your Best Physical Feature.
Day 11 - List 15 Of Your Favourite Things.
Day 12 - What's In Your Fridge.
Day 13 - What Is Your Earliest Memory.
Day 14 - If You Won The Lottery.
Day 15 -Timeline Of Your Day.
Day 16 - What's At The Top Of Your Bucket List.
Day 17 - What Is Your Most Proud Moment.
Day 18 - The Meaning Behind Your Blog Name.
Day 19 - What Do You Collect?.

Day 20 - A Difficult Time In Your Life

I suppose the hardest time was when I was at school. Up till I was 9/10 life was great. I had fun, friends and enjoyed it. Then with another school change I met up with bullying ... something that I had never met before.

Hard to describe what it was like, but mainly I was teased for my faith, my glasses, my willingness to obey, etc. The thing that was the hardest was that every time I tried to be friendly I was isolated.

The girl who was the ring-leader moved schools with me, so for the next 5 years that continued ... by my 6th form, things were easier as she left. Add to that an English teacher who told me I was useless and an art teacher who told me I was weird that I didn't know colour (yes, I'm colourblind ... which was discovered when I was 9), all in all school days were not the "happiest days of my life."

It's left me with a real isolationist attitude - which is hard to shake. LJ has done wonders for me, in that I have friends here ... something I have had little knowledge of in RL. (Yes I do have a couple of good friends, but only over the last few years)

Anyway - we all have bad times, nothing takes those away - but we get through them. As my Grandmother used to quote -

"Here we suffer grief and pain, over the road they are doing the same"

Comments

[diebirchen.livejournal.com]

Thinking of you!

[debris4spike]

Thank you

[missus-grace.livejournal.com]

My heart always breaks for you when you talk about your school days and the bullying. But you kept your eyes on the Prize the whole time and that's enough. So glad you found your way onto LJ and into our Spuffy corner!

*hugs*

[debris4spike]

Thank you - learning to be able to speak of those days has really helped ... the pain is there, but I am learning to accept that it is part of who I am.