Me Versus Mum-Me

[debris4spike]

I have been "haunted" by the fence painting.  I have started it twice, and each time have found it frustrating, how much time I spend, yet still have loads to do.

So, as I will eventually getting some money from Mum & Dad's house I decided to hire someone to do the painting, so I know it's done.  I have workmen coming to fit out my spare room, and do a cupboard in my kitchen, so decided I needed to get the constant pressure of the fences done, so I can concentrate on my indoor DIY.

However since I booked it for next week, all I can hear is mum telling me I am wasting money when I could do them myself.  Yes, she's right, but I just wasn't getting it sorted, so was worried that having this hanging over me, I would never get anything done.

So, sorry Mum, but I need to get the work done, so I can have life sorted out a bit more.

And before you say anything, yes, I know I am a fool, but I still feel guilty.  Especially as Tim always moaned at me when I used to say I felt guilty over the past years.

So, even though I feel wrong, I am fighting back to get my life a bit more positive ... aiming for a lot of the work done by Christmas.

Comments

[kazzy-cee.livejournal.com]

I think that's a great idea - and it means you can concentrate on your health. You still aren't 100% and getting something out of the way will be a weight off your mind. Go you!

[debris4spike]

I still hate thinking of my own weeknesses .... even after all these years it still seems wrong to give in to things.

Overall I hope that by Christmas I will feel more "together"

[brunettepet.livejournal.com]

Good for you for making this decision. Having these things done will be a relief.

[debris4spike]

Thanks - am hoping by Christmas that much of my house will be organised, so the new year can start with a flourish!

[deborahw37.livejournal.com]

Hey! The painter gets paid, you get the fence done, everyone's happy. As the wife of a builder we'd be in a right state if everyone did their own home maintenance so pat yourself on the back for boosting the economy and sprucing up your environment!

[debris4spike]

I can assure you that when I get to the last bit - the hall stairs & landing, there is no way I will even attempt it. I think I feel bad about this is that twice I have started the job, and it's my brain not coping, not the job itself.

[1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com]

Just (((hugs))) No judgement. I get it!

[debris4spike]

Thank you ... *hugs* back