I Needed That -

[debris4spike]

Thank you so much kudagirl  for the great little friend I now have sitting on my profile keeping me company.

Had a busy and enjoyable week at work, yet had a really emotionally low couple of days.

I suppose it was working on Maternity (which occasionally gets to me) and knowing that I won't be seeing James this weekend even though he is due to be over here. 

Not seeing James is overall emotionally the correct choice as I know a general con would finish me off emotionally.  I have made so many small, but positive steps, over the years, but something like that would set me back.  Silly at 51 to say I can't cope with something - but maybe by saying it is a positive sign!

However not seeing James is really hard.

Sad, aren't I?

Comments

[kudagirl.livejournal.com]

You know we are such twins in emotions at times.

When I was married I tried eight years to get pregnant. We were in the military so the treatments were paid for by them. Those treatments meant I had to be in the waiting room with all the pregnant women. Tests and treatments for those trying to get pregnant are so emotionally draining.

I skipped Dragon*Con in 2010. I just couldn't afford it. So no James that year for me. Turned out he cancelled so I didn't really miss him. Then last Feb, Tommy wanted me to go to a small Con here in the Dallas area. I just couldn't take the time off or afford it. The week before James signed on and came. It had been years since he was to Dallas. He was less than an hour away from me and I couldn't go. That was a very difficult weekend for me.

Everyone has difficulty coping with life at times. I hope you realize we all love you and think about you all the time. Maybe you won't get to see James, but we can still adore him from afar.

[debris4spike]

*hugs* - Yes, it is great to have someone that knows hat you mean, wothout making you feel a twit for thinking like that.

It means a lot for the words that you said ... as well as the Panda that hopped over, as I didn't know they were around. thank you, so much Kuda ... one day we really must meet, so i can give you a hug in person, for that love and support that means more than you can possibly know.

Hope all is going on OK with Robert etc.

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*hugs* Sure wish we could go together. Maybe they'll have a few vids up we can watch and enjoy it that way. Hang in there, sweetie. :)

[debris4spike]

*hugs* - I knew you would understand why I won't be seeing James this time ... even though it makes me sad.

Special friends help me through the bad days *hugs*