debris4spike: (Child)
It was when I started to check up on this I realised how long I have been missing.  So this is a big catch up ... here are the questions:-

52 - What is your most treasured item?
53 - Your biggest insecurity.
54 - Something that you want to do before you die.
55 - What is something that makes your heart break?
56 - Something that you’re extremely afraid of.
57 - What food are you craving right now?
58 - What was the last dream you remember about?
59 - A habit you wish you didn’t have.
60 - Describe the room you’re in right now.
61 - A dead person you’d like to talk to and why?
62 - Go look in the mirror. What’s the first thing you notice?
63 - What song makes you dance?
64 - Name a cartoon you loved as a kid.
65 - Your ultimate feast?

And here are the answers )


The list of 365 questions can be found here

I Am Still Alive!

Sunday, March 5th, 2017 03:25 pm
debris4spike: (Rose)
Wow

How did I manage to dissappear for that long - so far behind?  I suppose it asn't helped that I have been working a couple of "normal" weeks, which is actually only 3 1/2 days, but I have been very tired the rest of the time.  I also ended up very sore after having Carpel Tunnel injection.  The GP just caught a nerve as he put the needle in, and although he moved it it was still really sore for a week.

Jiffy has been keeping OK, which is good.

I have booked my holiday.  I will be out of the country for almost all of July (and a couple of days of June).  This coming Thursday I shall be meeting up with a lady and her dog who may be Jiffy's carer for the holiday.

The decorating is finished for the present.  I am slowly trying to pack things away in their permenant home.  However I have decided to have a conservatory built!  So some things will have to move again after Easter.  I will post some pictures soon, I promise.

Still I am posting a couple of pictures here.  Last Wednesday I had an email to say that Mum & Dad's stones had been placed.  If you are on Facebook you will have seen the overall view, but here are some more.

RIP Mum & Dad )

365 Meme Day 49

Saturday, February 18th, 2017 05:31 pm
debris4spike: (M&D wedding)
Someone/something you miss.

Silly question for me.

Miss you Mummy & Daddy.



The list of 365 questions can be found here

365 Meme Day 41

Friday, February 10th, 2017 07:15 pm
debris4spike: (M&D wedding)
Write a letter to your parents.

Dear Mum & Dad,

Thank you for so much.

The support of my training, and accepting my change of job. The friendship, as well as all that you taught me.
The example, love & care was something that I appreciate more than anything.

Finally let me assure you that I love you both, and miss you both. I know that you are at peace, you are in Heaven, but I do wish I could give you another hug today.

I will see you one day, and thank you for the knowledge of eternity.

Love you both, miss you both
Deborah xxxx




The list of 365 questions can be found here

365 Meme Day 20

Friday, January 20th, 2017 09:15 pm
debris4spike: (James - buzz cut & name.)
Last thing you wanted but didn’t get.

I really can't think of anythung, except for saying Goodbye to both Mum & Dad ... but that's just selfish, as they are in a much "better place".  I need to just be positive about me!

The only other thing I could think of is James doing another of his special "days" that I have been to in the past.

So, as I said a few answers ago, I am pretty content with everything.


The list of 365 questions can be found here
debris4spike: (James - pointing finger)
I have been a bad girl at LJ-ing ... but a good girl at resting when not at work. So haven't really opened up my LJ at all, so am behind with the daily meme. Hope to do better! Here we are -


9 - The best part of today was______

Monday - less coughing ... and I did the full 9 - 5, and still had the energy to take Jiffy for a walk when I got home! Yay, first full day since early November.


10 - What’s the hardest thing you’re dealing with?

Tuesday - I still find it hard to cope with how I am dealing with Mum & Dad's deaths. I suppose it doesn't help that it feels wrong to be planning things for my future without them being involved .... after 55 years it seems wrong to not be part of a trio.


11 - Today I wish I had more _____

Yesterday was a pretty good day, but wished I had more focus, as there was a heap of ironing .... and it is still sitting in front of me as I type this!


12 - What made today unusual?

Today, being a Thursday, I normally work 9 - 5, but the clinic I usually do in the morning was cancelled. So had a lazy morning ... had planned to get my passport sorted (but need a hair-cut!!), so finished reading my book instead.



The list of 365 questions can be found here
debris4spike: (Flashing lights with my name)
Well I said I would do it, so here are the first couple of days

What is your number one goal this year?

I really want to try and feel more positive about myself - but after 55 years that may be a bit of a struggle. Still points for giving it a go!

What are you most grateful for?

For my friends here, for Jiffy, and most importantly my faith. I am also thankful that, although I lost M&D in the last 15 months, I am thankful that I was able to know them so well.


The list of 365 questions can be found here
debris4spike: (Family)
Day 25 → a photo of you and your family

Obviously none this year - but here are a couple from the last few years. This one was taken when we were on holiday in Kos in 2007 ... we went over for a day trip to Turkey
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2012 - Mum & Dad's Diamond Anniversary
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And, our last family photo - March 2015, on Tim & Claire's Silver Anniversary.
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debris4spike: (Christmas - reason for the season)
No, not "the" first Christmas, although this is what we need to remember, but this is the first without Mum & Dad (or any other family).  And, yes I did cook myself a proper dinner ... and Jiffy thoroughly enjoyed himself opening his pressies that Santa brought him!

Happy Christmas .... I hope that all my friends are having a lovely day, but also that you are able to set aside at least a few minutes to remember the first Christmas morning - Jesus, the Son of God, born as a baby in Bethlehem.

Thank you Jesus for coming to this world.

Our Church wasn't having a service this morning, so I went to a local Baptist one and was pleased that we had one of my favourite carols. This is one of the 2 I chose when I was baptised back in 1975, but still love it now. Lovely tune, and meaningful words.



I do love the traditional carols, but this one was one of the other ones we had at Church this morning .... Let's celebrate the birth of a Baby

debris4spike: (Clarinet.)
Had a pretty good day, so far.

Have decided that resting isn't really getting me anywhere, so decided to go back to the gym today and because I am on steroids at present, that went well.  I have also played my saxaphone for about 15 mins.  It is easier to play for my mouth than the clarinet, so have started easy, and will build up.

I still have all my sorting out to do, but I shall, hopefully, do a chunk of that tomorrow.

And, for a final piece of news, a final step for Mum & Dad, their bungelow no longer belongs to us ... it completed yesterday.  A long time, seeing as the neighbours put the offer in last Easter ... but as we got more than we expected we weren't too upset ovrt all.

And, before I post this meme that I snagged from [livejournal.com profile] zhelana


1. Will you be looking for a new job?
No

2. Will you be looking for a new relationship?
No

3. New house?
No.

4. What will you do different in 2017?
Learn to realise that I need to be poitive about myself, and enjoy myself, for myself.

5. New Year's Resolution?
No

And there's more )
debris4spike: (Christmas - reason for the season)
Not great photos, but Christmas was getting organised ...

Happy Christmas )

And one special photo - a shop sign I saw.  For those who don't know, Dad's name was John, and Mum's middle name was Pearl

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debris4spike: (Yay!)
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This photo was taken on the lawn of Grandma & Granddad's house, on the afternoon of their weddidng, just as they are ready to head off to catch their train.

Just to let you know, and thank those who donated, that between Mum and Dad we were able to raise £1,000 to help with research for this sad condition.

We were fortunate that Dad never truly forgot who we were. We all teased each other as he assured us all that the others never visited. The classic was when he told Nick, that he had never seen me, but that Jiffy had been to visit. We presumed he was able to work out the 2 bus's he needed!!

However it was sad to see him unable to read, play the piano, etc.  So he was still Dad, although got very frustrated.

Anyway - great to be able to help support the research.  Apparently my aunt ( Mum's sister) has no knowledge of who she is, where she is, or what is happening.  So sad for my cousins.
debris4spike: (Dad)
I have this week off, and although there is lots I should be doing, I am going to take the advice of an amazing friend and rest more than work. In some ways it feels so wrong, but then I think of yesterday morning when I didn't wake up till gone 10am. For the first time in 3 years I haven't been tuned into my phone, and for the first time ever I haven't got to account for my time to Mum & Dad. It seems wrong on all sorts of levels.

I also hate the fact I still can't cry. Mum & Dad have been my friends, parents, role models etc, and yet I still can't cry for the absence I now have of them in my life. It feels so bad, and yet I know that when the time is right it will hit me ... I suppose seeing my teenage nephews in tears round Dad's grave on Friday made me feel that there was something wrong with me.

I am hoping to get someone to look at my fence today (waiting for a phone call), I had asked Tim some time ago, but he is "busy". In fact they are away on holiday this week, so hope the weather is good.

Sadly Nick is probably going to lose his job.  He has major health issues, including severe depression, and an ahour each ways drive is not helping.  He loves the job, but not the drive.  He admitted that he could have minimised his symptoms but realised that wouldn't have helped him.  So maybe he is learning to open up a bit.  For the 3 weeks Dad was dying he came every morning for an hour.  He and I did chat, mostly about "nothing", but it was good to be able to spend time with him.

Well, I am going to get sorted out for something to eat ... I am sure Jiffy will be happy to see me type that.

I will catch up with comments now - theye really helped.  Can't guarantee it will be today, but will be in the next few days.  I shall also start to get back to LJ properly, soon.  I have missed you - hope I haven't missed anything exciting in my absense.
debris4spike: (James - buzz cut & name.)
Happy Birthday [livejournal.com profile] jen_nsync_landl ... hope you are having a good day.

Yesterday Brenda sent me a link to this photo .... her 5 boys, she said.  They are on holiday, so it seems as if they are enjoying family time together.

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Nick, Dan, Andrew, Joe & Tom

This morning I had to go to Mum & Dad's to meet the gas engineer to service the boiler, and then the people who are doing the final empty and clean of Mum & Dad's.  It'a the start of the end, and yet it still hasn't sunk in.  This last year has passed over me, yet somehow I can't come to terms with things.

Dad is ok, although a bit low emotionally and finding this warmer weather harder to cope with.  But the staff are monitoring him, and I have managed to get in 5 days a week.  I ususally take Jiffy about every 10 days.  Dad loves seeing "the boy" as he always calls him, and he livens up the staff no end.

Speaking of Jiffy I also took him back to the vets this morning.  He had an infection in his right anal gland.  I have been having to apply warm compresses to him, and it's getting batter.  If it hadn't improved it would have meant surgery, so that's good news.

Once we had seen Marni we went for a walk locally to her ...Brunel Woods )

Oh well, back to work tomorrow ... but only for the day, then out again with Christine on Friday.

Hope you are all having fun x

Off Work ... Again!

Thursday, May 12th, 2016 11:38 am
debris4spike: (James - silhouette)
Don't know why!  I wasn't feeling great on Sunday, in fact didn't make it to Church, but after a slow walk with Jiffy and a chat to Dad I felt OK.  However not so good on Monday morning, feeling very wobbly so phoned in sick.

Tuesday I only work afternoons, and felt OK in the morning, but by the time I got to work I was feeling drained.  I saw the 4 patients I had to and headed home exhausted.

Wednesday went into work, to be sent home.  Apparantly my face looked more grey than my hair!!  So have taken today off as well.

I think the conclusion is, in that trying to save my ttoth I had a strong dose of penicillin, and then had anti-biotics in the actual root itself.  I have only just started to feel better after my virus, and last year, so just had no reserves left.

So I am pottering at sorting out the books in my study, and the CDs that were mum's.  Being a good girl, but keeping positive as well.

Hope you are all well xx

Just A Warning!!!

Tuesday, March 15th, 2016 09:27 am
debris4spike: (B&W swirls)
I may be a bit "in and out" over the next month.  I am feeling much better, although not 100%, but aim to re-start work on Thursday ... after 7 weeks at home that will feel weird, and I am sure Jiffy won't be happy!!  I work 3 1/2 days a week, however I have a busy month ahead.

We have 99.9% sold Mum and Dad's bungelow, to their neighbours.  They only rent, and their landlord is a real pain (even letting himself into the house without warning), there is also a lot of damp/mould.  So they approached us.

Anyway to do that, I am having a few pieces of furniture, which means I have to get rid of some of my stuff which is not as good.  I also have to pack up my room, and everything else.  I am meeting Tim & Claire after Church on Sunday, but hope to get there this afternoon.  So chaos in my place as furniture is being made available for a charity collection, or a refuse collection.

The whole family are meeting at M&D's on the 9th April to move some furniture to Nicks and Tims ... and the piano is going to one of Brenda's sisters as Andrew wants it.  Just as I was waking up this morning and planning what I had to get through today, this song came on the radio ... which really made me chuckle!



In other news I can't find where I put Jiffy's spare eye-drops (and at £25 a tube) I need to find it!  However I need to get an emergency replacement, so must get going.

So as I said, I may be a bit in and out ... I will try to keep up to date via my tablet, but a lot depends on how exhausted I end up in an evening.

12th February

Saturday, February 13th, 2016 03:17 pm
debris4spike: (Jiffy - one ear up)
Another 12th arrives, and I actually have time to scribble.

I have now been off work a couple of weeks, so am beginning to slowly feel human again - viral infections!!!

Anyway - yesterday, started off with the normal brekkie, and the taking Jiffy fo a walk.  Since I inherited him I am learning a lot about local roads, as he loves to explore!  Once back he got his car harness on and we were off to "Mum & Dad's" ... well, up the road from them actually as Jiffy was booked into the hairdressor for his bi-monthly care.

I dropped him off and went back to M&D's and did some more sorting.  The house is cool as we have turned the heating down.  I did mostly my room, as that is less depressing than throwing things away (although there is still a lot to do).  I had lunch ... McDonalds (!!!), and then back for more sorting - starting to empty the kitchen now.

On my way back to pick up Jiffy I dropped some stuff off at a Charity Shop, and stopped at the cemetary there, as I wanted to see my friend's mother's tombstone, which had been put up recently.

Then back to collect Jiffy, and back home.

A nice lazy evening, watching junk on TV and playing Tetris on my tablet.

So, not a bad day overall.
debris4spike: (Irrisistible)
I am a member of [livejournal.com profile] monthlydiaryday ... but yet again another month has gone by!

Still trying to catch up with some news on your LJ's ... but am sure I have missed loads.  I also have quite a few comments on my own LJ that needs to be replied to.  So will do a mini catch-up ....

  • Dad is not doing so well.  His vocabulary has decreased, and so it's very frustrating for him (and us).

  • Mum is not coping with Dad.  She is sure that he could "pull himself together" .... Sadly however many times I explain to her the sad truth of Alzheimer's her memory is not good either.  That doesn't help in general either as she accuses me of forgetting to tell her things.

  • Jiffy is doing well - he had a hair-cut last week, and Jackie said his skin is pretty well.

  • Saw this amazing hearse last week on a walk with Jiffy (did post on FB and Instagram)

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  • Today I managed to damage my right calf muscle as I skidded taking Jiffy for a walk.

  • Last Wednesday I played "hookey" from Mum!  I took the day off work - went to a stately home (photos to follow).  I also did a bit to sort out my back garden ... as well as sleeping a bit.

  • I managed to cut the grass yesterday, as well as get some work done with dad in his general garage clear-out.

Oh well I shall post this short note ... and try to get caught up with some letters I owe before heading out into the rain and to Exeter for the night.

Hope all is well with you all.
debris4spike: (Hardest thing - live in the world)
Wow, can't think why I have not been on-line ... no real reason at all.  So here I am, and I must try to reply to owed comments.

My cough is still with me, but the GP now thinks I am OK ... in other words, it's stress.  As is the fact that I am getting jaw pain, which is also caused by me grinding my teethin my sleep - so next week I am being fitted for a guard to wear at night.  Even Jiffy is getting more skin irritation, which his vet thinks is aggrevated by stress.

The Bank Holiday weekend has been about the same as normal ... housework, gardening ... and repeat.  As Marni had talked to me about stress I realised I need to take Jiffy for longer walks ... so that has been a positive start to each day (for us both, I hope).  She had the sorrow of nursing her younger sister through terminal cancer last year, so can truly know what it is about.  She was just 40 when she died ... no age at all.

Well I must get on and reply to past comments, and try to catch up with your news ... if I have missed anything, please let me know.
debris4spike: (James - my name)
Hi

Firstly, how are you all .... Hope all is going well for you.

I am back on antibiotics, as the bugs never went, and started to get bad again.  However the good news is that on Tuesday (photos to follow), Christine and I went out for the day ... and I drove (almost 4 hours, and walked for about 5) ... and I was OK.  The cranial treatment that I have been having has really helped.  Yes I still feel tired and achy, but that was the first drive I have done in a couple of years .... YAY

Mum & Dad are still about the same, although Mum is a bit more clingy on some days, and Dad tends to have real prob;ems finding his words some days.

I had been thinking of going to go to London for a day in November to get a photo with James, but yet again it's not to be, as even if he doesn't cancel with filming, the venue has moved to Brighton.  That makes the day trip totally impossible.  London would have been a long day, but I could have done it.  Oh well, I said a couple of years ago that I doubted I would get to see James .... look like I am being proved correct.

Well I think I have caught up with all the past comments ... still have to check up the [livejournal.com profile] historamedy365  comments .... I have a few more finished on my 100 icon work -
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